Vulnerability

I’m putting myself out there to show just how much Tarot is helping me understand myself and offer guidance. We really do have everything we need inside. Tarot helps bring that information to the surface. It illuminates the answers that are already inside us.

For the past couple of days, I’ve been struggling with my path–where I’m going, what I’m suppose to be doing.  Intense, and I mean paralyzing thoughts and internal struggles came over me out of nowhere. Yesterday it peaked. I don’t remember feeling this lost in years, if ever.

I looked to Tarot and here’s what I found:

The 6 of Pentacles in Reverse, 7 of Cups and 5 of Wands all describe everything that has been happening with me over the last couple of days.

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The 6 of Pentacles in Reverse tells me that before I can begin to be of any use to anyone else or help others I need to be in balance myself. It also tells me that maybe I’ve been putting others before myself. You can even see in the card how the pentacles are not in balance. Self-care is needed; balance.

The 7 of Cups is the intense struggle I was feeling. I felt very overwhelmed in trying to decide what I should do, where I should go–just tons and tons of conflicted feelings. I felt in the dark as to what to do. My situation seemed chaotic and out of reach.

The 5 of Wands in Reverse indicates an internal struggle. My mind was struggling and pulling me back and forth with all these thoughts.

Then I added in guidance from the Oracle. Amazingly, the cards fit in perfectly with my situation and offered wisdom, putting everything in perspective.

pic2.jpgDirectly below the 6 of Pentacles is “To The Sea” This is all about nurturing self. Being in the flow and not worrying about if this is what I’m supposed to be doing or where I’m supposed to be. It’s about riding the wave of opportunity and allowing trust and faith to guide me. The energy progresses from being out of harmony in the 6 of Pentacles in Reverse above, to the challenging energy of 7 in that I need to relax and ride the wave.

Below the 7 of Cups we have “Co-Create” in the protection position. This indicates that I’ve been trying too hard, relying only on myself. I’ve been trying to create all I desire without nurturing. I’ve worked myself into a slump; into feeling overwhelmed (7 of Cups!) I need to ask God/Spirit for inspiration. When I do, things will become clearer. Ideas will flow as soon as I get out of my own way. It’s very comforting to know that I don’t have to figure out everything myself.

“Orphaned” is directly below the 5 of Wands in Reverse. Both cards are 5s. Orphaned describes a sense of loss–an identity crisis. It describes exactly what I was feeling in the 5 of Wands reversed. It’s a feeling of recognizing that you don’t fit in and the need to belong. No man is an island. Orphaned describes a feeling of uncertainty about your place in the world.

The overall message to me is:

  1. First and foremost, I need to think about me. It’s time to think about my needs and self-care instead of putting others first. I’ve done that for too long and things have gotten out of balance.
  2. Lean on God/Spirit to guide me. I don’t have to figure everything out myself. In fact, it doesn’t work that way. No wonder my head has been spinning. The answer is to co-create with God. Ask God/Spirit for guidance. That’s when things will start to really take off.
  3. The internal struggle–the core of the problem, has been a deep rooted feeling about not fitting in; feeling different. It’s ok, I’ll find my place with others of like mind and spirit. Not everyone may understand me, but it’s ok.

I share this to show the power of Tarot toward self-actualization and empowering us with guidance.  We all have the wisdom inside but sometimes need help finding it.

Tarot cards are from the Smith-Waite deck.

Oracles cards are from Colette Baron-Reid’s, “Wisdom of The Oracle.”